The last 2 days I have gotten up earlier than normal to spend some time in the Word and in prayer (instead of doing it before I go to bed). And the last 2 mornings have been anything but good afterwards. Is this Satan trying to discourage me from starting out my day with God?
I started to get really frustrated this morning. Then it hit me. My favorite story in the Bible is of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego (Burn Me Up). I love when King Nebuchadnezzar threatens to throw them in the fiery furnace and they said they know God is able to rescue them. In Daniel 3:18 they say, “But even if He does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.” This is how I want to live my life and this is what I’ve been asking God for- the faith to say I know my God can deliver me from the pain of just everyday life and even if He doesn’t, I WILL worship Him and serve Him. And I WILL continue to spend time with Him in the mornings…knowing that greater things are to come!
This is my favorite picture EVER! It was taken on my 30th birthday.
Wednesday night at Switch we talked about worship and what it means. We talked about what hinders worship and how things in our daily life cause that hinderance.
In our switchgroups, we asked the students why they were broken. It was heart-breaking what some of my girls had to say. One of my girls found out on Thanksgiving that the man she’d been calling dad for 14+ years is actually her step-dad. She is hurting so bad…wondering where God is…wondering what SHE did to her dad to make him disappear. Another girl’s parents are fighting all the time and are discussing divorce. She also wonders where God is and feels alone…like she has no one to talk to.
I’ve got one girl that I have always thought a lot of. She is very knowledgable about the Bible and is very good at explaining things when the other girls don’t understand. She shared that she’s really been struggling with not worshipping like she used to. She was very upset. After switchgroups, we all got back together and had some worship time. As I stood next to her watching what was going on I saw something click. She began to close her eyes…then to lift her hands…then fall to her knees…all in worship. Tears began to stream down my face. As she is on her knees she begins to weep so I go over and get on my knees next to her and just hold her. After the music was over she stood up and embraced me. I whispered in her ear that I am praying for her. She whispered back ‘I love you so much April’. It was so powerful! It was such a blessing to me to see God work in her that night, and to know that I was able to be a part of that.
God is so good!!
Last night I was at the gym doing my cardio stuff. The way it’s set up, I was looking right out the front window into the parking lot. As I was looking out, a VW Bug pulled up and parked. It’s one of the new ones that has the flower vase thing in it. I got to thinking that EVERYONE puts a sunflower in there (most of the ones I’ve seen anyways). So I tried to think of something different I would put in mine if I had one…something unique. The only thing I could come up with is to put water in it and see just how radical I’ve have to drive to get it to spill.
Any other ideas?
Last weekend I went shopping for new jeans. I HATE buying jeans but needed some new pairs (mine are either too big or have holes in them). I always get my jeans at American Eagle cause I like the way they fit. So I go and picked out a few pairs to try on and grabbed a size smaller than I have been wearing…hoping they would fit but not really holding my breath. Well, to my wonderful surprise I could fit into the smaller size! I was ecstatic! It has been probably 9 years since I’ve been able to buy this size of clothes. I wondered if maybe AE sizes run big so I kind of blew it off. Well yesterday I went to Penney’s and bought a pair of slacks and bought the smaller size. Woo hoo!! It’s great motivation to continue eating healthy and to keep up the exercise I started last week.